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Sometimes music speaks best

2008-01-17T13:34:00.000-05:00

I know its been a while...
It has been a strange few weeks for me.

This songs is a picture of where I have been and where I am going. God is so very Good. He makes everything Glorious. Read through the lyrics and return soon to read about the beautiful picture they paint for me.

Lifehouse - "Broken"

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing?
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

2007-12-28T17:01:00.000-05:00

If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

1st John 1: 6-9

Light and darkness cannot coexist within each other. Consequently it is impossible to say that fellowship with God can be found while living a life that is characterized by darkness. God, being light himself, cannot have any relationship with sin, which is darkness. (By this truth, shame exists. If light and darkness could co-exist than there would be no need to hide.) This is why God's only son Christ, who John tells, is light himself, was born into the world - to rid the world of darkness (John 1). Thank you Jesus...Merry Christmas. It is now possible to have fellowship with God because Christ hath shown his light on me. This is the gospel message.

What makes the gospel special is that it allows unworthy people to have a relationship with a highly exalted God. What makes the gospel even more special, is that it not only reconciles man to God, but it allows people to be reconciled to one another! I love this passage because it reveals how to have fellowship with God and true fellowship with one another! Walking in God's light allows me and you to have fellowship with one another :)

This causes me to ask the question: What in my life am I trying to hide? What are the dark areas that I want few to see. I believe the dark areas of my life are what rob me of better friendships and deeper relationships with people.

As an outgoing person I love community. There are those times when I want to get a way, but if I had my options I would nearly always choose to spend my time around people. In fact I believe all of us were created for community. However community is not always a comfortable place, even for people that generally enjoy being around others. That's why at large gatherings some people hug the wall as if it were falling and others tell incessant jokes 'to ease the tension'. You know loud, outgoing people can get lonely and sad too.

So what creates a comfortable community? ...

Humility

The perfect community is one where there is not one person that sees them self better, more worthy, or more important than another. The perfect community is people living out the truth that each life has significant value, not only to God but to each member of the community. Humility is walking in the Light of Christ. Humility is walking in the understanding of who Christ is and what He has done for ALL people.

The reason some christian communities are uncomfortable, is that there are too many of us hiding... Hiding behind the secrets and comfort of our habitual sins. Hiding, afraid people might find out the truth about us. Hiding, worried that someone may actually know what we are thinking. We are a people afraid of being vulnerable to the truth that each of us are busted, bent-up, messed-up people. Or they are uncomfortable because we are to arrogant to believe any of this applies to us.

Yet there is Great news! When there is less hiding, there is more genuine community. When we step into the light (repentance) the bible says that Christ will cleanse us from all of our sin, allowing us to have true fellowship, not only with him but also with each other. Now THAT'S AWESOME! Its really good news for me, because I know I need your help to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord (Ephesians)

Have you ever been struggling with something...a thought or action; you know it's sinful; and when you ask God to forgive you, the first thoughts that pop into your mind are: "Did it work?" "Did you really forgive me?" "I feel no different" Yet when we tell a brother or sister of faith, hear their encouragement, and receive their prayers... all of the sudden the grace of God becomes real and almost tangible... ? While we don't need the brother or sister for God's forgiveness to be true, isn't encouraging to know God has given us community as a place to help us work out our salvation and be picture of His grace.

This is why I have titled my blog: my life's open book. I don't want there to be anything separating us from having the true fellowship. I try to live my life as an open book. One of my ways of stepping into the light is by freely acknowledging to you upfront that I am messed up, can be weird, voice my opinionation, and say really stupid junk sometimes... I imagine if you read this blog enough times, you'll know exactly what I mean!

Again, as stated in my last post. I have no desire for the conversation to end here. If it does, I think I will stop blogging.

"Has the gospel transformed you? I hope it will influence the way you look at other people. They need a savior. And now race, class, and caste are not a big deal. We are all one body in Christ Jesus."

Ajith Fernando - at Urbana December 2006

2007-12-20T17:03:00.000-05:00

For a while I have been hesitant to begin a blog. The idea that you may be reading what I write and have actually never met me concerns me. Additionally, I do not enjoy writing nearly as much as I do a great conversation. Yet today I begin a blog. So understand this: my goal is not for you to read me from afar, but instead to encourage good conversation.

While I know I am opinionated, I also know there is great value in hearing what others have to say. I can only hope that www.mylifesopenbook.blogspot.com will be a forum that encourages not only good conversation but also seeking what is true. However, do prepare yourself -- Such pursuit can get messy. People are GOING to disagree. The unfortunate reality about being opinionated is that rarely are anyone's opinions even a glimpse into the fullness of Truth. God has told us His thoughts are not our thoughts and His ways are so much higher than our ways (Isaiah 55)! Hence, truth is not defined by what people think, but by what a Holy God defines through the infallible scriptures given to us by His grace.

It is in this light that I begin a blog... a blog of my thoughts on the church, the Bible, sports, politics, and my life. Please, lets talk. I'd like to listen.

Next time:
An explanation of "mylife('s)openbook" and 1st John 1: 5-8

2007-12-20T09:09:00.000-05:00

Like many of you didn't already know how I feel about life...

My first post coming soon...